your blood and tears.

im pretty much alive and clear-headed enough to be blogging.
despite the fact that i told myself to stay away from my laptop.

well, for a start.
i dun look forward to the rest coming back cos i DO NOT wanna hear about their adventures.
not now not ever.
not entirely sour grapes, but well, u'll when expectations are not met, life sucks.

im stuck with a bloody fever and i cant go town to shop my sorrows away.
guess i've just been too tired on this trip.

its like the most adventurous trip i've been on, seriously.
hospitals, humid buses, crazy changes in the temperature.
i got too tired and now my body is telling me i need a friggin good rest.
so ba-la-bam, im down with fever.
i jus dont wanna waste moments counting down to the day school starts, so fuck the fever and get down to life baby.

to neverland.

im flying off again.
in less then 10 hours' time.

i've always believed that flying to somewhere far far away will revitalise my soul.
not 100% true, but im still hoping for this trip to be more then just a learning experience.
mayb i'll get some kinda inspiration, or realise a certain something.
well, im not sure just yet.

but every journey to the airport does inject some adrenaline into me.
fly fly fly, may the next journey by to korea or taiwan.

singapore will not be missed, since the weather is going back to the all-tropical-no-more-cardigan kinda weather.
i hate that perspire-dripping weather.
off to be frozen in the cold.HAHA.

hopefully dad takes care of bro and bro takes care of dad.
and maybe by the time i come back, some miracle will happen.
and my house will be sparkling clean.


bon voyage baby!
love love love love love love love love, TONG.

drown.

nah, im not obsessed with guys.
its just plain fun to be looking thou.
it'll be better if i could get the white loafers out of my head, den i could appreciate with more pleasure.

today im in the i-need-to-blog-cos-i-cant-get-over-last-nite mood.

tonight took off well.
went slacking with ms bing, the soon to be next big thing in the photography world.
gosh (she paid me only 10 bucks to say that, due to poor readership on the blog).
its like, i miss that feeling with keaty too, i know some day we'll get it going again.


i like tat kinda '2 of us, sit down and have no agenda kinda nite'.
mayb we're a couple of drinks away from knock-out, mayb we're jus chilling,mayb we arnt even talking.
but its ok, we have time on our hands.
the night is always too young, lets drown in our youth.

1 moment.

i just wanna be friends, or mayb to put it off nicely, be back AS friends.
we had it going smooth, we ruined it, i dont wanna go back there, but i'll like to be friends again.
but look wat u've done.
being immature and trying to go with the flow irritates the fuck outta me.
excuse me for the vulgarity.
YEAH, u in the all glam-slam 'balabam' __ JC.
hell, ur smart, im not half as smart or talented as u.
and i hate making the 1st move, and i have to , every single time.
no matter what status we're.
its that tiring jus being friends? i dont believe.
theres a lil bit of tingling sensation in me, its jealously.
we're always competing in the ego race, when will we stop,
NO, when will I stop.

fool.

white visions.

because i have not been sleeping enough.
because packing is a chore when ur going to somewhere so cold and remote.



late nights, nah, i hate that.
i wish i could go back to sleeping at 10pm.
well, its impossible, 11pm is the new 8pm for everyone.
time is fluid, people are irresponsible.
holy cow, i wish i could choose again.
holy shit, will mum be back anytime soon.


....


u had a house, a lil sister that i know.
u were boxing, i could join u.
we met on the bus, 2nd time, no, mayb even 3rd.
how come u're in my dream but not my life.

that's why its frustrating for me.





....



mama mia, i need a break.

taking a break.
laptop will be in apple hospital.
so yeah, that sums it all up.


hey baby, come back safe and sound.