daybreak.

im not exactly having the blast of my life savng money.
i can hardly buy anything.
i've turned to fashion blogs for some kind of much-needed comfort.
and i normally leave the job to my over imaginative brain to produce that much-needed euphoria.

if only i could dress half as gorgeous as them.
JUST HOW DO THEY DO IT!


well taliored black dresses, coloured stockings, high-waist, sequin-shift dresses.
imagine imagine imagine.












...

i have decided to once again decide that...

i have to be the good daughter again.
mainly because i just to don't have that rebellious streak in me.

sighs.

and its really much better to have someone paying extensively for ALL your needs.
loser-ish really.

Hello decision.

im sitting with a pile of work.
and well, staring at a postcard saying 'Hong Kong'.

my heart skipped three beats.
..

random people ask me why im always saving (well, i cant say its for a rainy day right?! sounds nutty.)
well, the answer is, to travel.

i've made up my mind, (im near to packing my luggage) and i've convinced my parents.

there's a giggling sensation in me that pushes me to run along and be irrational.
and the safer side of me, its just gunning me down with ' what ifs...'

the outcome of being rejected will prolly be tougher than learning to live alone.

..

it took me just 3 minutes to convince Dad.
it was a feat, a milestone in my life, for frankly, he was my biggest barrier.

Mum was much more excited than i am (not a good sign.)
through out the 20 minutes phone call, she was blabbering a whole lot of lifestyle plans.

and i spaced out, i kept spacing out.
i caught myself thinking about the possibilities during TV production class today.
i caught myself smiling at the business traveller magazine.


right now, i have just gotta go get my resume and ranking form done.





and maybe, i'll fly in time to come.

1. Stop chewing on pineapple(s).

2. Start eating oily chee cheong fan with just strictly soy sauce.

3. Kick drama and fried chicken out of the diet.

4. Read alot of magazines.

5. devote all free time to sleep.


talk about a comprehensive working semester.

xoxo

whenever im at the world's end, stuck at the pits.
you give me strength in the words u say and the listening ear u give.

u dont know how precious you are just yet.
i only hope i can subtle-ly show it to u, without damaging who you are.

im still amaze at how u always pick the right words,
defining the core of my passion with such a simple sentence,
u seem to see right thru me, like how my mum does.

word of advice,
always pick malibu dream over anything else.

...

IBM is the world's top 20 semiconductor sales leader, and largest computer company.

so im proud of u too.

one nite out.

Thank god for people like YOU, YOU and YOU.
my very own bunch of super friends.





life is so much more colourful.

kick-ass sunshine.

i dont know what i've been doing lately.
everything seems to move auto-pilot style.


like how i avoid bumping into you.
how i come to work later and leave work on time.
how i hate to linger, except when i need books to fuel up my life.
how i say 'hello' and smile to everyone other than you.

and i guess nathaniel might still be a better name for my child next time(if i ever have one.)

...


mum came back to singapore three time last month.(it was fantastic!)

im listening to maroon 5's WAKE UP CALL, i know im a bit wayy behind.
but i just realised.
i need a wake-up-call perhaps.

reading travel narratives, finding spiritual enlightenment.
reading love essays.
searching for love in different corners of my life.
i beginning to feel that life seems a lil too drama-ish.
almost fiction literature.


went to NUH to visit rahila,
who had a 12cm jack fruit seed looking in-growth in her stomach removed.



reading the basic theory textbook everywhere i go.


i need to take some pictures to brighten up my day.


rants, boring rants.