XXXX.

fallen from grace.
not that im an angel to begin with.

stab me.

hello cha.

Someone wants to see her photo on my blog.
er, cos she quite a good friend lah, so.
(she paid me 20 bucks to do it, im short of cash so...)





Saturday night out with ChaBing and MYRS at butter factory.
4 straight hours of booty shaking, what a work-out.
i hope i get abs sooon.

i know my face is abit ....
but oh well.
she paid me, so i oblige lor.

Fund me.

im not trying to exploit blogger.com.
but i need cash.
desperately.





NEVER WORN.
This Tunic top is absolutely beautiful, but i just cant afford to keep it.
$19. go ahead, take it!
$19!!!!



yaya, its calling for u $19!
its length is like runner's cut FBT on me.
great for girls abt 160cm, it's like a dress!



WORN.
Bought this skirt at TOSS, think Far East.
willing to let go at $20 or less.



WORN.
Patterned skirt, got it at a vintage store.(not authentic vintage)
make it a tube dress if ur 165cm and below.
just belt it! Cheap!
$15.



this skirt has a nice shape, a lil puffy for volume but not too much to make u look fat.




WORN ONCE.
Skirt, the kind you get to tie so it fits any shape!
$5, no joke, no typo.
$5!



WORN.
empire-cut top, once again flatters any shape.
$5!



just in case u wanna see the print alil closer.
slight furring at bottom right, not visible.



WORN.
Pull and Bear long sleeve.
puffy sleeves, adorable.
$10.



Impulse buy, while i was stressed out studying.
$18.




do let me know if u want more pictures.
im extreamely friendly and hyper.

BARGAIN people, but be resonable.
drop me an email at laingtlau@hotmail.com
or call me if u have my no. and there's the tagboard.

For reference:
im 169cm, topshop size 10-12.
plesantly plum, but fat is not the word to describe me.


erm, thanks for looking and laughing.
if u dont intend to buy anything.
its ok, i just wanna say THANKS FOR READING!







cheerios,
TONG!

shh, keep ur stuffs to yourself.
exposing is bad business.

Harry Potter and his magic.

i would be very glad if i could say that the adventures of Harry Potter din ended yet.
Harry Potter and the deathly hallows.

Ron, Hermonie and Harry.

no spoilers, for it is much too selfish to be doing so.

im planning to re-read it cos i skim through the book too fast.


i cant believe the magic ended.

for the lady who loves pouches.

i heard from HER and i read HIS blog.
it was absolutely sweet.
how they talk about absolutely the same thing that is happening, and how they feel absolutely same for each other.
how SHe was so delighted at what he did for her.
and how HE made sure she was the one who brightened his day and turned a disappointing day into a wonderful day.
and i saw the pink heart-shaped note HE wrote for HER.
its nice to be in love ain't it.
its nice to see each other in class everyday,
talk and laugh and know u are in love with one another.

one day when you get to lie on his shoulders,
be sure to tell him how much this moment means to you,
take time to feel ur head on his shoulders and his scent all over.

take time to soak in love,
take time to love.
and take time to tell me how it taste like, to be so much in love.




love,
TONG.

you took our work and made it yours.
that's plagerism.

reminise.

Hanged out with xinyu a lil here and there at causeway point, somehow, i managed to get back what we felt towards each other, a little by little.
the only difference is that she's mega pretty now, and it doesnt matter how she looks like, i just want her to be more proud of herself like how keat and i are so proud of her. and if ur reading this, hello beautiful.

i know this post is getting wordy.
little and little, im feeling the warmth of her heart again, i did, for awhile hide myself from her cos i was not used to being beside someone who changed so much. and i realised, it wasnt all her, it was me.
i changed too fast and hard for myself to bear, and i put the blame on others. What a sin, what a shame.

...

the lil things we used to do, came back bit by bit. hanging out at causeway point was a start, since we use to do this alot when we were in scondary school.
I remember when she was sec4 , and i sec3, we met to go to school every morning because we were so terrifield of losing each other. we wanted to sppend more time with each other. mostly i was early, waiting to see her orange coloured ripcurl bah pop into sight. by that time, she already wwnt to live in yio chu kang, and during those days, distance never seemed to be our problem.


she now stands at 40 or maybe 42kg, but the world rests on her shoulders, her tiny and frail shoulders. Her hopes, dreams and asipirations. and bit by bit, i see her gain back everything, her cheerful-ness, and everything she was before we all went seperate ways.


hello beautiful, may i be ur friend? the one who dwells in ur heart all the time?

LAO, HUI.

Hui... here it goes.
all ur unglam-ness plus all the natural lookin shots!
im not an aspiring photographer, im just having fun.
so dont expect professional shots from me..
hahahah! omg, hui. did i tell u u look damn good in JJC uniform?
as oppose to the weird maroon colour uniform we used to wear back then in UNITY!
omg, we've come a long way.
and yes yes, i will try my BEST to stop using so much vulgarities.
you know i'll try.



The start of our very random journey in lot 1's NTUC.
GST hike, not funny, even fruits became more expensive!




er, i like this, for obvious reasons.LOLS!



eh hui, do you know that dragon fruit iis not like an appple, cant eat the skin lah!
still pose! hahahahah






Pose somemore pose somemore!



i thought this din do her dimples justice.


i love love love her uber deep dimples.






WOW, this is really natural looking, check out her mouth.
is your tongue desiring for something? LOLS.




and cheerios,
this is for us.
6 years and counting.

this unexpected meet-up was a joy.
TGIF, friday is always the best, aint it?

this random trip drinking tea and walking in lil boring lot 1 was...nostalgic.
felt like those days we used to hang out doing nothing while others went home to mug.
yea, those were the days i cant forget.
did you know u were really my study buddy and have-fun-back-in-sch buddy.
volleyball and everything, we shared so much of our lives in unity together.

Theres something i dont wanna bring up, but its like a barrier in my heart.
you know, i still cant forgive myself for not sticking to you(in jjc).
for not being in the same institution with u now, for unofficially 'abandoning you' after so much we shared back in unity.
i'll never forget the day u cried in JJC canteen when i told you that i was going to pioneer instead.
i never wanted to bring this matter up, i always wanted to alpologise officially.
but i could never get over myself, theres guilt and shame, of leaving you.

so here i am, saying sorry.
thou this post was suppose to be randoma and happy, not emo.
but i just wanna stick with u lah.
at least mentally.
do give me a call when u are all stressed out or need an outsider u can speak to.
you know i can make you smile, laugh and cry, all at once.



love love love,
Tong.

SO PROUD!

ang keat ying is going to japan.

i am so frigging proud of u!
SO I'LL MAKE THIS SIMPLE POST ON HOW MUCH I AM SO PROUD OOF U AND I LOVE UUUUUUU!


and thks for being there virtually with me via sms.

A birthday celebration, Part XXX.
the first of first of my 18th birthday celebration.
oh dear, it might seem never-ending, bu this is really the last of the last.!
(i bet deep within ur soul u wanna see more thou! hahaha.)



So here we go, at this, what seem to be a beautiful place.HAHA!



Erm, introducing, THE QUEEN.



HAHA, her royal menu!



Royal side-kick a.k.a Ang Keat ying.



yaya, foood. royal attendants were really slow lah.



YUM!



Ang Keat Yiing has a very tiny stomach tooo, give me face lah, EAT MORE!



Royalties tend to be very unglam, and multi task alot. think eating mango pudding and herbal pudding while trying to finish up that dumpling.



The pretty lady who hardly eats.



OOh, this adorable guitar comes in limited pieces.
i bet xinyu and keat are plotting to buy it forr my 19th birthday!
LOLS.



keat loves this shot, HMM, but she's not in it lah!



erm, royalties at work keeping their smiles picture-perfect.



She is so SMALL! i could devour her in my hug! ok mayb not devour but...ya, she's tiny.SLIM!



Pretty side-kicks!



OKAY! this is pretty unglam, but oh well, unglam is the new BEAUTIFUL!





And that was how we ended the night.
with a photo shot as if we were tourist in singapore.

...

this is the 18th i want, in fact, this is the life i want.
in bliss, with u guys.
just like how it was when it all started back in unity sec, while we were all playing volleyball.
we might have never spent a single moment tgt on the same court, but we are a team.
and we grew from that.

Thank you for spending the sunday with me.
for keat esp, who took a day off from work, and xinyu, who sacrificed family time to hang out.

childhood sweetheart.

there used to be this little boy.
we were in the same kindergarden, we stayed opposite each other, we held hands when we queued, we came up with plans to dump food without letting our teacher know, we sat beside each other during mealtimes.


so where are u now?

i know you moved away, and so did i.






good bye.

looking through all the 18th birthday related stuffs.
i still cant believe how great you guys celebrated my birthday.

it warms my heart, again and again.

hello mummy.

for the benefit of my mum, who might be reading this on my blog from china.
i will just put more pictures.
so erm, u will feel assured that im in the pink of health every time u see my face.
hahahaha.

hello mummy,
dont worry,
i still love you!

you can leave a message for me on the tagboard, the box on your left that is pink in colour?
you see it?












all the random pictures from art fest day.
OMG

glorified.

i kinda get angry with myself because i subconsiously reminded myself about you again.
like how long has it been already?

ya, i get angry
its the same when we use to hang out.
i get angry at you, all the time.

mayb back then u were patient enough to listen, to care,
but i know right now its so different.

u hardly reply my msges and its the same with me.
and i get angry.
for god knows what reason.

i do think about how nice u HAD been and all,
and sometimes not having someone disposable around me is unbearable.
but it was mayb just because u could tolerate me at much more then i could ever tolerate myself.
yes, you always could slow down my pace when i get too fast for myself to catch up.
you are, at this point of time, the best i ever had, so far.

and i refuse to ever tell you.
because we always seem to be competing against each other, and i hated to boost your ego.



....



being angry is tough.

and the thing is, we all have to be happy, happy and very happy.
and then it ends there.
and life seems normal, somehow perfect.
and what if we
really are not happy at all?


....


yea, im fucking lonely sometimes.
just sometimes when the moon turns blue.