Hanged out with xinyu a lil here and there at causeway point, somehow, i managed to get back what we felt towards each other, a little by little.
the only difference is that she's mega pretty now, and it doesnt matter how she looks like, i just want her to be more proud of herself like how keat and i are so proud of her. and if ur reading this, hello beautiful.
i know this post is getting wordy.
little and little, im feeling the warmth of her heart again, i did, for awhile hide myself from her cos i was not used to being beside someone who changed so much. and i realised, it wasnt all her, it was me.
i changed too fast and hard for myself to bear, and i put the blame on others. What a sin, what a shame.
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the lil things we used to do, came back bit by bit. hanging out at causeway point was a start, since we use to do this alot when we were in scondary school.
I remember when she was sec4 , and i sec3, we met to go to school every morning because we were so terrifield of losing each other. we wanted to sppend more time with each other. mostly i was early, waiting to see her orange coloured ripcurl bah pop into sight. by that time, she already wwnt to live in yio chu kang, and during those days, distance never seemed to be our problem.
she now stands at 40 or maybe 42kg, but the world rests on her shoulders, her tiny and frail shoulders. Her hopes, dreams and asipirations. and bit by bit, i see her gain back everything, her cheerful-ness, and everything she was before we all went seperate ways.
hello beautiful, may i be ur friend? the one who dwells in ur heart all the time?
