they say the reason for the feeling LOVE is due to a hormone.
a hormone that will rage and charge through your body for 2 years, max 4.
this is how they define love in biological and kim sumsoon theory.
.........
like everything beautiful in life, (YES, im saying love is a beautiful thing.)
its lifespan is kinda short huhs.
i think im blabbering non-stop about this lovey shit cos im short of maternal love.
HAHAS.i believe that is not bullshit.
..........
talked to keat just now.
she went out with ms perfect(xy), without me.
yes i know, i was having tuition, and that i've always got weird timeslots..
sometimes i think i dun fit in their circle no more.
sometimes i doubt, i think, i doubt, and i complain.
random: omg..that guy is kissing kim sansoon! hahas.
yes, doubt, i doubt so much.
this friendship has been put to the test so many times.
most of the time, we dont clear the barrier, we just bury it deep in our hearts.
and worst comes to worst, someone always conpromise and apologise, even if she's not in the wrong.
and yes, i was like HUH when i heard they went out.
it was like i asked both of them out, then in the end, both like cant...
and in the end, they went out tgt.
just cos their timeslots din suit mine.yest again.
i feel PS-ED.seriously.
i know i know, big girls dont whine about this kinda shit.
but other than SIZE, what makes u think im a big girl?
i feel so bothered by this.
i even wonder if im pms-ing or is tis really the truth.
is this how reality looks like?
reality for the three of us? for me?
im always leaving early when i meet them.
i never have a full day planned out just for them.
do i not? or they just cant see?
why cant we meet for short lunches and catch short glimpses of each other?
why must we ALWAYS ALWAYS AlWAYS go for long shopping trips that hardly hold any meaning for me.
dont talk about conpromising.
im sick of it, been there done that.
why cant i not be affected by all this.
im seriously in need of korea drama to calm me down.
i wanna run away, to a foreign land, to rejuvenate, to heal, to scream and laugh like im mad.
is it an illness.can i get it heal.im sick of feeling so wrong all the time.
TC.
