XINYU once told me tat whenever i feel like crying,
i should look into the bright lights, so my tears won't come out.
she's sick.
no time for one last movie together.
no time for one last shopping trip together.
i guess its a matter of letting go and accepting the fact tat everybody has got a life to lead.
Mum has been living in my shadows for awhile now, pampering me, clearing up after me.
it's time she lived for herself.
for what she wants.
i wonder what it'll be like to return to a quiet house.
Mum wont be screaming loudly for me to clear up this and that.
Mum wont be calling out loudly for me to have dinner.
to sleep early, to not stress.
i wont get home and see the TV switched on.
no korean dramas will be playing on the tv.
She wont be sharing with me the lastest plot, gossips.
No one to buy the i-weekly.
No one to tell me about current happenings, i might just have to start reading newspapers.
No one to cook me my fave dishes wwhen i have cravings.
No more breakfast in the morning.
No more home-cooked dinner waiting for me on the dining table.
No more nice soup.
and also.
No more of anyone taking her for granted.
is it over-reliance?
it it over-dependence?
or is it love taken for granted?
i have no answers to all of that.
jus leave me alone, to think for myself, to think for that women i have taken for granted.
take care tong.
