i dont care if i look ugly or fat, these are hardcore snaps, jus take and upload.
hahah, i love my personal space.i can mess ard.
haven been doing cam whore for 2 years i think (hahahaha)
im kinda mad now.
a mix of mad and emo.
weird
i crossed that line.
im not sure where i am now.
i feel floaty, airy, its all going up my head.
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im online, waitin for BEN to come and talk to me.
i dun wanna make the 1st move.
hahaha, cmon ben, give me ice cream flavours add.
no, add me to ur convo.
that will be even cooler.
my life is empty and fucked up, i keep trying till i got so sick.
im leaving everything to rot, im walking away.
and yes, i really am getting sick.
came up with a fever, and slrpt it all away, too tired mentally.
im guilty, guilty of getting home late jus becos i was out having a wild time.
3 times this week, drinking and killing my kidneys, wait, the week has not even ended yet.
grandma warned me again.
im walking into a new dimension, im crossing all my lines.
no cigrettes and alcohol when im with my frens.grandma says, only with her.
grandma is a cool lady with a big personality.
grandpa is lucky, he got such a charming lady as a wife.
at the age of 64, still looking beautiful, she aged gracefully.
she looks so beautiful when she's puffing, holding the cigarette in such a manner that reminds me of old shanghai women in tight cheong sam.
she looks so slim for her age, absolutely beautiful, why din i get more of her genes.
when grandma was my age, she was dating ah gong.
they got married one yr later and ah gong brought her to singapore.
ah ma is sexy, such a beautiful lean body that i should have gotten in my genes.(reiterated, i know.)
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loving someone isnt easy, imposing your emotions on someone is. imagining and thinking that someone deserves being thought about by you is easy.
thinking abt someone is easy, saying it out is hard.
fucking your own mind up is easy, fucking grades up is even easier.
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i cant bear to sleep.
im blogging everyday of my boring life.
