jus for awhile.

i think im a psycho.
as in, i seriousl think i've got a huge mental problem.
i am too friggin random and i FEEL too much.
nope, its not pms or wat.
imagine getting monday blues every other tues/wed/thurs/fri/sat/sun (PS:PICK ONE.)
so horrible, HAHAS, i really need time alone, yet, too much time alone makes my brain go y-y.
alot has been going on lately.so much that i am really hanging on no more.


cheap thrills dont make me happy no more.(yea,i've got enough of sales for now. )
i stop saying 'life is sweet' cos i dun wanna say smtg only to not mean it.
OMG.im seriously scaring myself.
i wanna sleep all the time, i think.
excuse me.
am i suffering frm some premature depression or what shit!
HAHAS.opps.
and i really wanna be happy and gay(i know its repetition.) all over again.
to feel the joy of knowing everyone and loving everyone.
not get tangled into some uh-hmm politics.
as in, i always wonder why we cant jus love one another.
just like how 4/7 was.HAHAS.
ok.random tout...maybe i jus miss being a small kid( sec sch).
everything is big and scary now.
as much as i try to stand up and b wat-they-call-strong, it's a lil hard.
i wun say i haven adapted to poly life, im lovin it.
its jus independent and stressing me out.



all i want is to get on board a bus and go far faraway.


i dun mind walking in the midst of strangers.

i woulden mind being alone, jus for awhile.


and of couse, i;ll love to put the stress and worries down.
jus for awhile.








i think i REALLY need to take good care.
im probably getting sick(not mentally!) but due to ...erm...extreme condiitions?
LOLS.
keep going TONG.