im turning 17.
i cant linger in sweet 16 no more.
i've walked to the end of this journey.
YES, i know everyone around me has some wat turned 17.
im not grumbling, but i jus dun wanna grow up so fast.
a few resolutions:
1. read the dictionary.
2. seriously, have the determinaton to slim down.
3. take socpsy seriously.
4. stop oogling at boys/guys/men
5. hang out less, spend more time with the family.
6. talk less rubbish-talk.
7. work on pronunciation.
8. stop thinking of falling in love.
9. stop planning foorr my future wedding.(HAHAS.)
10. learn to be more gracious.
11. stop taking too many trips down 'memory lane'.
12. start attending volleybally training.
13.try picking up a new sport.( hmm.tennis seems delicious.OPPS.)
14. treat my friends wiith love, make the effort, go the extra mile.
15. start writing in my diary again.
with all that said.
i guess its time i took one last look down memory lane.
in contridict myself, always.
cos i realized, i've blended in so well to this new lifestyle..
i've left so many things behind, including frens.
i've practically left a LIFESTYLE behind.
coffeebean,keat, unity, my passion for vb...but i've got the beachy vibe back.
im being very frank with myself, all the changes, has made me lost the inner volleyballer.
im constantly being exposed to new stuffs.
too many new stuffs, tat i've strayed and start anew somewhere else.
my roots..long forgotten.
for a start, i barely spend enough time wiith my family.
a big part of my life now is online, in town n marina.
i dun go bugis anymore.
bus cooncession doesnt work there.HAHAs.
stingy girl.
emotinally, i've attached myself to my class n course.
i've forgotten many people who were once very impt.
yep, i slappped myself for tat.
for not paying enough attention to so many others.
for indulging in so much fun, only for my own sake.
i guess its realli time i climb on top a chair and look around me/myself/I.
start doing some soul search, and yes, once again...
asking myself if i've put my priorities right.
im beginning tto sound like DAD, this is wat naggin does to pple.
yea.i know its no big deal.
but 17 seems like another era, thou its basically a TRAP-IN-THE-MIDDLE kinda era.
hahas.i wanna make drastic changes.
hair, body, habits.
and yet, another side of me ask myself why i wanna change.
isnt comfort zone a much-loved thingy?
breakthrough? im too young for tat.
unless its for proojects..hahas.
im talking so much emo bullshit tat i got lost in my own touts.
everything becomes kinda random.
but the main thing is: learn to make myself happier than i;ve ever been.
i jus wanna be a very happpy.
overloaded with joy.
kissable truckloads of happpiness.
n pro dropthe random-ness alil.
oh ya..resolution no. 16. :
BE LESS FRIGGIN EMO.(DUN BLOODY CRY EASILY.)
hahas.tc.
