good bye goong.

current mood: kinda devastated.

i just found out that the ooriginal cast for GOONG, will not be in GOONG 2.
the 'phang' of heartache simply cant be described.

it's like a bolt of sudden emptiness.
i was so excited about the whole sequel thingy.
i mean, i love the original cast.
damn shit, all those crap promises that 'they'll cont filming for goong 2 if there is a chance.'

aww.im just a very very, i repeat, very, disapppointed fan.
almost lost the whole 'go to visit mama' vibe.
i must tell mum the bad news.
oh man, i feel like dying.



.............

went to the haiir salon today.
NOPE, not my hair, i desperately wanna grow iit back ya know.
it's libing's hair.
it has turned edgy-er.
kinda the uncommon vintagy hairstyle.
not ur usual bob, aiya, cant spell it lah.
in a good way, this is her time to shine!
her hair, when paired up with a nice dres ( hinting her to go buy dress) will look YUMMY!.

good move to try out smtg new my dear!.

and the usual subway lunch, finally tried the 'meatball marinara' that i wanted to try since duno when.

din get to meet charissa cos she was sstill hair-ing away at telok bangah.HAHA.


..........

count down.
just last week i was saying: 'one week later im gonna be away...'.
now, its less than 24 hrs away.

the ultimate letdown today was the GOONG news of the cast.
complete new cast? the producers are not thinking straight.
sighs, big big sighs.

should not have wasted my time goonging away the last few months.
should have helped out at some old folks home instead.
and all the youtube i watched? doesnt make sense no more.

fuck it.im so frustrated that i almost feel like crying.
why is life so unfair man.
i was really looking forward too GOONG 2.
i even planned to buy it online, cos spore probably has very slow import rates.



well, im off to youtube to GOONG more, maybe that'll lighten up my load.
argh.unfinished packing for my trip.




take care.the hardcore goonger who has just died from gooong depression.

(big big big enormous gigantic, bombastic SIGHS.)

Aunt agony for small dickheads.

i am so friggin angry.
im so glad my lil bro got into Dunearn rather than assumption english school.

it so hapened that i walked under a block of flats and saw a bunch of boys.
very obviously, they had played truant.
how can they be 10 miles away from the school when it was 12.30pm?
school ends around 1 plus, everyone knows that.

fucking hell, they started doing the ah beng lee siao siao thingy.
the zoot-zoot thingy with their mouths.

acustomed to such hooligans, i walked faster.
then they called for me.

fuck you lah, do i look like im 12? or worst 14?
how dare you call me 'white shirt de,white shirt de'.
TMD, i'll slap you up down left right and bring you home to your mama.

don't u play around with the big jie jie who has one million times more meat on her whole body compared to the meat you have on your small lil chickens down there.
i bet ur pubic hair haven even started growing yet,
go home and fertilise your AREA before ypu come out annd play.
and you better start going to school cos the teachers in school teach science, and you'll need the knowledge of science to fertilise yoour mao-less areas.

nothing to do then go home help your mummy wash the floor.
cos housework not easy.
don't slack round the neighburhood waiting for random girls to disturb.
jie jie has been there done that, when u grow up sure regret one.
if u are bad boys now, you will grow up to become bad man (NOT BATMAN).
small DI DIS ar...shoo.
quickly ZHAO (run as fast as you can) home before jie jie flash all her meat at you.

if you dont know how to fertiilise your mao-less areas, jie jie give you advice...
wait lor.
small dickhead boys boys like you are very immature, so puberty probably also slower.

aiya, and if you think your mao-less area's organs too small...
NO FEAR, ( the loser ah beng tee shirt brand..)
Singapore government dont FINE people with small organs.

..........

so insulted man.
really feel like going over and taking off all their pants.
make them go home pants-less.
they were only sec 2 lor.

all wear shorts.



kids nowadays.
so horrible.




take care.

high on air.

OOOH.next sem should be a good start.
i mean..i have the same timetable as CHARISSA!!!

now we can ROAR together..
ahhahahhas.

..........


i'm flying im flying!

im flying into mummy's arms!

i cant wait.

28/09/06 - 9/09/06.

that means i wun be able to catch the premier of GOONG on tv.
damn. such an ass.

lets pray that singapore airport has a TV that sorta thing.
and that TV must be in sync with channel U!
hahahas.

..........


they say the plane goes to hong kong.

isnt that absolutely neat!!

i can take out all the reference i made for 'shopping in hong kong' while watching PAT MOK'S shopping queen show.

aww.let life be full of sweetness for awhile.

till the day i leave mummy's arms.
(cant wait to be holding te GOONG novel mum bought!)

...



i never thought dad would let me go.
perhapes he saw me crying myself to sleep.
perhapes dad just loves me more than i can imagine.
flying alone, with unfarmiliar people on board SIA.
im anticipating that 4 hours on air.




take care babbbbyyyyyyyyy!

plum wine please.

venturing out into the darkness.

that not what i'll do normally, but right now, its what i want to do.


Mummy, it's ok.
it's not your fault that all the tickets have been booked.
i'll just keep missing you till Chinese new year.






let darkness drown.
take care.

highway BITCH.

Hello people! Im a FULL-TIME receptionist today and i met derric and that very cute guy.

OH SHIT. I know his bloody cute, but i forgot his name!!!
he's in tennis, short, cute,cute,short and cute.


argh! im so inspired to blog by one of my ex-classmate.
She's in TP 'MASSCOMM".
she once said that we're 'affliated'??!!
WHAT THE ************ HELL?

GROSS.i went to myspace to check my accunt and guess what?
she added me as a friend?
EWEWWEWE.i wil not accept.
i mean, who uses myspace.com nowadays? (i went there cos im so bored being a full time receptionist)
c'mon, do i look like im from 2004?

i mean, i almost wanted to start a 'anti-*******' campaign.
She bitched about her bestest friends on her blog.
im so glad im not even considered her FRIEND.
her BEST FRIENDS were like perfect friends, they were the ones who chiong-ed to her house in the dead silent of the night just cause she broke up with some loser.
SEE. loyalty eh.
but what did she do to them?
bitch about them.
do her eyes grow on her butt?
dose she wear her panties on her head?

is she dumb?

EEEK. she had her hair ( undefined hairstyle, not straight, not curly) cut short.
dyed 'ah-lian gim'.
i know she's good at the whole 'talking thing' and that im nowhere near to her.
but surely she can afford to choose better colour dyes and wear clothes that are bigger.

stop bitching or the cold sore will get worst.


im sorry CARO. OOPS, did i just say ur name out loud?



takecare.sore mouth.



Disclaimer: Caro did not do anything about me, she did not bitch or scream in my face. But i just cant stand the way she does things to the people who really care for her.

Omm-Ba-La-La

MONDAY BLUES?
i've scared them all away by doing so many chores.

woke up early, damn early.
ran down to central to

1. Return DVD (Thank god it's not overdue.)
2. Rent 'my lovely kim sam soon'. (i've put it on hold for far too long!)
3. Buy groceries ( I need to cook a satisfying meal for bro.)

next, went down to town with Keaty.
we bought 1 top each at a super reasonable price which i shall not share.(hehe..think baskets and bargain)
we got 50% discount bags from the shop aunties normally go to!
it was full of joy and laughter, CRAB (not crap, mind you!) jokes and WARMTH!
mainly WARMTH...arrr...i so desire it.

spent only 35 bucks, but came home with objects that were far more worth it.

i wanted to make TIRAMISU..but it dosent work on my 24 hours schedule (including sleep).

ended the day savouring every moment of that KIM SAM SOON VCD.
lovely lovely lovely.

Just cant wait for 'goong 2' and some other korean drama that might inspire me to b available.

somehow, i love addictions, to simple things like making sweet deserts and gluing myself to the tv (k-drama).



...........





met this beautiful girl yesterday.
she has luscious curls and baby-smooth soft fair skin.
all you can see in her eyes is truthful-ness.

She's beautiful without saying it out.
there's SOUL in her, fiery that burns the right way.
She eats and laughs like no one's watching, that's what that's so beautiful.
she's an untamed beauty.

not just typical proud/arrogant pretty bitch.

her name's KEAT.





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TC.

L.O.V.E

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you



L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you



(I LOVE THIS SONG!-tong tong tong tong tong)

losers

met a couple of angmoh losers who cant wear underwear right and cant use MAC!
haha! make me laugh.
big time losers.
made my mac JAM!

losers.
angmoh losers!


and wats with singaporeans and free online?
losers
big time.

all hail great life.

life took a turn for the better.



i've decided to start all over again.
first with my new hairstyle, slowly with the clothes.
never with the food.

embrace the foodie at heart!

i've decided that i will STOP buying any shoes that are sharp and/or pointed.
put an end to torture on the feet.
i want to give them space, rounded space.
i've got years ahead of me.
i'll need to put my feets into good use.
they will take me on tha journey call life.
thus, NO MORE pointy shoes.


NO MORE TIGHT CLOTHES.
actually, it's better to lose weight.
but HOLD ON, must i be a slim bitch to be happy?
no. just in case you dont know.
my priorities in life includes FOOD, it's EATING.
not, never DIETING.

REVOLUTION PEOPLE.

make way for big, bold and beautiful.


(yea, you think im just consoling myself? think twice, you NUTHEAD,)


OPEN MY EYES AND MIND.

wave goodbye to wayang cos im so bloody sick of it.

i want to establish good-hearted, sincere relationships with people around me.
well, there are always the people we have to ENTERTAIN...
lets just say i'll entertain them with an honest heart.


Shfting of the priorities in my life, heart and mind.

get back to being narcissistic, even without a digital cam i call 'mine'.
stay clear of people who will ADVICE me to diet, and stick with people who will get me to move my enormous ass to burn calories.

tell the world that my name's TONG, no questions asked.
stay our of my affairs, i like TONG, you can think its my surname, middle name, first name..
watever.
HAHAHAS.
i feel happy just saying it.


the thing about me and my repetition on how much i wanna be like 'last time'?
BULLSHIT.
i'm gonna start making fantastic memories i'l be proud of before my 2.5 years in masscomm pass me by without fun.


did i say? im back to being all-the-way bugis village person.
like there are so many treasures there!
open your eyes, TOWN IS BORING.
zara mango topshop and fareast? time to refresh..click click click.


my taste in men has changed to.
it's no longer just mathematics teachers taht i have interst in.
open the doors to my heart KOREAN GUYS!
HAHAHA. laugh out loud cos HALLYU IS HERE TO STAY!
(korean-wave)
i've fully immersed myself in this wave.


.........


randomly, i've started to plan for keat's birthday present.HAHA.
the kiasu-ness never leaves.



take care.

family blog?

before i start on my adventure round town.

i would liketo declare today public holiday..cos...
i cut my hair.

its looks bloody like rebond.
but no, i mean..i swear not to rebond.
rebonding will make me a walking flat head disaster.
just for ur information, CURLS are in.NOT straight hair.

but anyway.
just take a look for yourself te next time you see me.

apparently, the photo uploading thingy is not working on blooger.



..............


instead of going to bintan(where we've already gone once.), we went around singapore.
to the parts of singapore that i have never seen or step foot on.
bedok, katong, siglap road...

we left the house at 9am and headed to The HYATT for buffet breakfast.
it was at this place called the STRAITS kitchen or some shit.
price shall be undisclosed.HAHAS.

after the intercontinental breakfast that took me from INDIA to ITALY..
we went to east coast park to look at sandcastles, chill out and take pictures.
i cant upload them cos i've got no wire thingy.HAHAS.
i know, lousy.

next up, we drove bedok area for fish head curry, otah...
and picked up some DURIAN PUFFS.
YES, those durian puffs were so soft and the durain paste was overflowing.
i will die of fat over-dose, but i dont really care cos food is important to me.

we then retreated to our HOTEL at CHOA CHU KANG for a short break.

it was decided that we had too much food, and if we din sleep to let the food digest..
god knows how my stomach will blow up.


HMM.dinner is going to be chilli crab at east coast.
well, im just gonna chew on fried buns dipped in chilli crab sause, since crab is not really MY THING.




mum isnt here, but more or less, paternal love aint that bad.
dad took the effort to wake up early, planned the day for us.
made us felt as if we were really on a holiday.
now i feel like a malaysian who has toured singapore.HAHAHAHAHA.
...


i've hated my dad.
i've loved my dad.

it came to point where sometimes, i duno how to deal with him.

i've scolded my dad.
i've wanted to KICK my dad in his ass.
i've yelled at him.

it came to the point where i knew i was the one at fault, not him.

i've thougt about it.
i've come to my senses.

i love my dad and it ends here.
there will never be an -ed to it.



take care.

a moment for blogging.

there is no reason not to blog.
no reason at all.


if i could finish watching IL MARE, (the movie)
watched trailers for 'just my luck',
'click'
'sad love story'
my girl and i'
'daisy'
'my sunshine'
'My girl drama'
'i love kim sam soon drama'
'vineyard man'
'legend of the seven cutter' by the goong girl
....the list goes on.

i've listened to the MV for 4th time running now.
its by YUI of the GOONG, singing with his other half of the boyband UN.

there is no reason why i cant spare time to blog.


the slackerst job i've ever had in my entire life.
6 bucks per hour, just eat into that timeslot.

yes yes, politics and discrimination.
but money is still money.
thou i put happiness 1st.hahahas.

sitting at the recep is just different.
im in my own lil world, watching shows, emailing mummy...
every thing a person can possibily do at home-im getting paid to do that.

on the salesfloor, it IS unbearable.
but at recep, the only thing killing me is the air conditioner.
not humans, not some other jack-shit.
life can be cool and smooth.

i close my eyes to everything that is happening around me, and just slack.

i search and copy recipes, play games that will never end, plan the things i wanna do the next day...

.......


answering calls that barely need me to crack my head.

absolutely sweet.

....


dinner is going to be famous amous's blueberry muffin, HL milk and fruits.

YUM.cant wait.




take care b4 i freeze.

a lil shock.

my heart leaped.
not for joy, but in fear.



NOPE.i did not see the man of my dreams.


its doing of reception at ishop that scares me.

i was not at all polite to the big boss who called...
i transfered some guy to the wrong person...
its just bloody screwed.
no, no HAHAS, im serious, its screwed.


argh.
ARGH.
argh.
ARGH.



well. at least i get to watch joo ji hoon on u tube.ahahahahs

been there blogged that.

they say the reason for the feeling LOVE is due to a hormone.

a hormone that will rage and charge through your body for 2 years, max 4.

this is how they define love in biological and kim sumsoon theory.

.........


like everything beautiful in life, (YES, im saying love is a beautiful thing.)

its lifespan is kinda short huhs.

i think im blabbering non-stop about this lovey shit cos im short of maternal love.

HAHAS.i believe that is not bullshit.



..........




talked to keat just now.
she went out with ms perfect(xy), without me.
yes i know, i was having tuition, and that i've always got weird timeslots..
sometimes i think i dun fit in their circle no more.
sometimes i doubt, i think, i doubt, and i complain.

random: omg..that guy is kissing kim sansoon! hahas.

yes, doubt, i doubt so much.
this friendship has been put to the test so many times.
most of the time, we dont clear the barrier, we just bury it deep in our hearts.
and worst comes to worst, someone always conpromise and apologise, even if she's not in the wrong.

and yes, i was like HUH when i heard they went out.
it was like i asked both of them out, then in the end, both like cant...
and in the end, they went out tgt.
just cos their timeslots din suit mine.yest again.
i feel PS-ED.seriously.
i know i know, big girls dont whine about this kinda shit.
but other than SIZE, what makes u think im a big girl?

i feel so bothered by this.
i even wonder if im pms-ing or is tis really the truth.
is this how reality looks like?
reality for the three of us? for me?

im always leaving early when i meet them.
i never have a full day planned out just for them.
do i not? or they just cant see?
why cant we meet for short lunches and catch short glimpses of each other?
why must we ALWAYS ALWAYS AlWAYS go for long shopping trips that hardly hold any meaning for me.
dont talk about conpromising.
im sick of it, been there done that.

why cant i not be affected by all this.


im seriously in need of korea drama to calm me down.

i wanna run away, to a foreign land, to rejuvenate, to heal, to scream and laugh like im mad.


is it an illness.can i get it heal.im sick of feeling so wrong all the time.








TC.

school sick.

work didt start with a 'bang'.
it didnt start gloriously, it started coldly.
as in the temperature.

sales isnt smtg i suck at, but its so foreign to sell white color machines.


spacious envirroment only seem to inject more fear.

almost like im being monitored every hour.

and the uniform thingy is plain bullshit.
not that i wanna say: but its PLAIN BULLSHIT.

..................................


i cleaned the floor today, and did things that mum would do if she's in spore.

she's working real hard over there, its just not her usual lifestyle.

accounting just aint that easy after all.hahas.

she's almost like my lover now.

we sms 24/7, make calls to each other at nite.

makes her feel less far away.

...................................



recently, i've been less patient.
can see that from my post, which are segmented.
very short and brief.
i accidentally start screming at dad at times.
but then it seems.. dad understands.
he scolds me for my bloody temper, but conpromises with me.


im indulging in a couple of things.
A. Goong as usual.
B. Subway, new found fav food.
C. korean stuffs, i get excited when i hear pple speaking korean.
and i get pissed when i jus cant seem to understand it.
never liked language barriers, so hard to bear.
D. i really dun mind doing the mahjong thingy.




....................



im still waiting for the bloody OST to arrive in singapore.

but well, the thing about waiting for SOMETHING is that it just makes days easier to pass.
one step nearer to the next killer sem i know.

DAMN FRGGIN SHIT.
i knoww people nowadays, esp adults, they dont give a damn to teachers.
but teacher's day is important to me.
like big time man.
why do i hae to work on that bloody day.
why why wwhy why why why.
i wanna go back too yea, i haven steepped into UNITY since ....has been half a year lahs.
im forever lookign at secondary school kids and envying them.

can i have a bit of my past back?
just a lil bit?





take care.THE SCHOOL SICK.

TELL ME MORE.

what am i waiting for?
(perhapes prince not-so-charming, charming. HAHAs.)

NOPE.

it's the tv commercial . (im watching kim samsoon on ch U!)

.........................

im waiting for that change in me.

that change to bee changed back.

have been honestly too caught up with being too obsessed with weight and mum.

weight issues constantly bother me and keat, adding on, there are always the pressure from one of OUR DEAREST going-to-be-blown-away best friend.( loud coughs).

i guess being obsessed, for example, thee more u think abt weight, the heavier i get.
well, so kick it in the ass.

met my ddearest going-to-be-blown-away best friend, she handed me my birthday present.
it was amazingly combined.
for once, we walked around and talked alt.
i draged her to the supermarket at ISEtAN and we had fun there.
she seem to be morph back into the girl i knew about 4 years back.
that oridinary girl with the smile that could melt thousands.

...........................




My current obsession.notice how the tallest guy in black hair looks almost digitalised? i mean..ok, such good looking peeoplee exist.HAHAS.

......................


having been living in comfortness, but not highness.
slack slack slack.chill chill chill.
when we reach the peak of life, it can only starts going downhill.



i always believe in that.




take care.for there's jus no one else to take care of u.

i will survive

mum left fp greener pastures.
well, in her dictionary, if you count.

she din leave with a bang, only mee and dad sent her to the airport.
Bro had school.

i've never spent so much tiime in the airport, alone.
4 hours,wandering, alone.
enjoying chill-out time, savouring peace, trying to deflect loneliness.
how simple it was to spend a day.

went home and and GOONG on the sofa.
mum wasnt beside mee no more.
i had to let her go.

i mean, mum is HUMAN
HUMANS have a purpose in life.
mum's PURPOSE is not to take care of housework and us.
she has her own LIFE to lead.
and there she goes...


........................



i want to know the origins of manjong.
it is absolutlely amazing.
cures almost everything.

but yes, when manjong and korean dramas come togeether...
it just makes my lifestyle an 'auntie' lifestyle.
but well, WORK is starting.
APPLE APPLE APPLE APPLE.
have i not had enough?
i doubt so.
new job with is highly linked to APPLE.



....................



i cant get enough of goong.
shh...but im not saying out loud.
addictions can be kicked, just super slowwly k.
i still love it, but i realised that friends are perhapes the most thing.
dramas dont keep you going and make u laugh, friends do.
friends that feel almost like family.
they do the trick.




..................



adapting to a new lifestyle.

a home without the core of its body.

a home filled with mess and clothes.

hahas.

it's amazing im surviving.

and i'll keep surviving.

just giv me friends, majong, drama and food.


i will survive.




take good care.

NO MORE.

XINYU once told me tat whenever i feel like crying,
i should look into the bright lights, so my tears won't come out.


she's sick.
no time for one last movie together.
no time for one last shopping trip together.


i guess its a matter of letting go and accepting the fact tat everybody has got a life to lead.
Mum has been living in my shadows for awhile now, pampering me, clearing up after me.
it's time she lived for herself.
for what she wants.

i wonder what it'll be like to return to a quiet house.
Mum wont be screaming loudly for me to clear up this and that.
Mum wont be calling out loudly for me to have dinner.
to sleep early, to not stress.

i wont get home and see the TV switched on.
no korean dramas will be playing on the tv.
She wont be sharing with me the lastest plot, gossips.

No one to buy the i-weekly.
No one to tell me about current happenings, i might just have to start reading newspapers.
No one to cook me my fave dishes wwhen i have cravings.
No more breakfast in the morning.
No more home-cooked dinner waiting for me on the dining table.
No more nice soup.

and also.
No more of anyone taking her for granted.





is it over-reliance?
it it over-dependence?
or is it love taken for granted?


i have no answers to all of that.



jus leave me alone, to think for myself, to think for that women i have taken for granted.




take care tong.

forbidden dreams.

forbbiden city, the musical.

i know she'll like to watch it, with me.

and i'll like to watch it , with her.

i wanted to surprise her with tickets forr thee afteernoon shows.
i even decided it wwould bee tuesday afternoon.

60 over bucks.
think i can save it.
she wont be here to watch it anyway.


hahas.






---------------------------




having so much fun wiith cheesecakes.
having so lil fun with projects.

i dreamt of A for writcomm.
bloody hell, u know howw dreams alwas go the other way,
hahahas.


better work hard man.
iff not die!




tc

swallow me whole.

vulnerable.

tired.

unfocused.


probably, this is what i feel everyday.

mum's flight has been confirm.

she has been packing.

i barely see her cos im always in school.

deadline of radio assignment/ proposal collides with mum's departure.

past 2 weeks has been a breeze, we sit beside each other and watch GOONG together.

Time flies, its coming nearer and nearer.









sometimes i wonder.
how am i gonna cope.
with unbreatheble 2m swimming pool-like assignments , and emotional detachments.

when i get home late at nite, who's gonna be waiting for me on the sofa?
probably pitch blackness.





tc.

growing trend.

169cm.
am i considered tall?

well.shamelessly.i'll probably say im kinda tall.
well, i use to be pretty happy with my height.
i used to wanna grow even taller.
those were the times man.
but i realised...
tall aint really that good.


not tat im too imaginative..
but i'll probably marry (if i even get married!) someone 1 or 2 cm taller.
kinda sad huh.
i mean judging by thee growing 'not-growing' height trend of singapore guys.
cant help but be in despair.


see, in shows(or rather dramas.) u see the short lil gals falling in to the arms of the BIG but not so big guy.
well.tat will never happen to me.
cos A. im just too BIG for it.
B. spore guys..average height is what? 170? HAHAS.
oooops.


i duno.its just a random post.
random complaint.



whooppee.


take care